Tick.

Nervous. As you stumble around looking for that morning pick me up, the one you have been craving since that final bump the night before.
That thing that will get you through the day. A day full of fake, fake smiles, fake people, a faker you.

Who knows when the downfall of the young began, but another bright young thing takes the fall. Admired by all, loved by none. She wont make it through this day.

Dirty Sheets.

While your crawling out of that bed you've been in far too many times before, you think he cares?
He loves you? No.
He just knows how tightly he has you wrapped around his finger, he knows his smile can make you go weak at the knees and he knows your weakness more than most.
You said you'd never be that girl, well congratulations & good luck with being this season dirty little secret.

Don't Try.

I tried to be a better person.
I tried to be everything you needed.
I tried not to hurt you.

I was never good at succeeding, especially when it came to you.

Lights, Camera & Action.

It must hurt.
When you realize, no one is ever who they pretend to be.
This isn't a movie. The emotions are real.
The people you leave do care.
It must hurt.
To realize, your sad, lost, alone & soon to be just another thought.
You will be missed.

Show Me Your Colours.

I wish you could see all the colours in the sky tonight. Sit with me and watch me take photos to capture the beauty that no one would believe such a harsh, cruel world could produce.
I know how you feel about these colours. How they fall into each other they let go of another day in this place & the world turns to night.
It gets colder and you move closer, goosebumps and I'm not sure whether they are from the cold winds or from your gentle touch.

Animal Instincts.

Nights are easy, it's mornings that I struggle with. I must be part owl. I hate sunlight during winter, so then I must be part bear. What a pity I couldn't be part lion so I could be brave and fearless.
I know I'm loyal & I'll keep your secrets, your hopes, your dreams, desires & fantasies, even your fears. I'll hold you when your sad even if you wont admit it to me. I'll celebrate your triumphs and reassure you after your downfalls.
I'll watch you grow as a person and hold your hand during all the good & bad. I'll bring the sunshine back into your life after your darkest hours.
I may walk away, but I'll never walk out or be gone long, I'll be back the second you need me.

Love does crazy things to people who are ready to let crazy into their lives.

Power of the ex

You scare me still.
My heart races when we talk.

Its no longer a fun feeling.

You

Were a big big part of my life for a long long time.
Then you vanished and I wondered if you thought about me.
Thoughts of the things we knew about each other.
I wish you were closer.

To Lie

I'm not going to.
Yes you will, you always do.
No.
How can you...
How can I what?
Feel no remorse.
I don't know, just leave it.

Love

Wow you have your ups and your downs.
But they bring on those smiles and them frowns.
Boy, for now this is the closest we will get to that real thing.

I love you.

Happiness

To me is a crazy thing.

Like we never ended.

Only instead of it being constant.
It seems to be monthly, monthly you ruin my day.
Monthly I'm in tears because of you.
Monthly I hate who I am and who I became for you!
Monthly you make me wish I never met you.

But I did, and you will forever be my past as I will be yours.
But now I never want to touch another boy again, in fear he will break me like you did.

Scout

"You"
She screamed.
"Me? Why me?"
He replied, in a tone as to not enrage her more.
"You destroyed me, changed me, I wasn't that person until I met you"
She sobbed.
"But I loved you, her that girl you were, are to me."
He yelled heartbroken.
"You don't love me!"
She yelled back.
"But I do, or I did. I can't do this anymore, I love you but I can't"
He cried, tears running down his already damp face.
"Hold me?"
She begged, exhausted from the fight.
"Just for tonight"
He said merely to keep her happy. Even though he just broke her heart all over again.

Blank

I can't even think of words for you anymore. Nothing. Nothing comes to me.
If you were to speak to me, no words would come to me to reply.
I hope that makes you feel good.

Dress it up

However you want, she will never be me.

Tonight

Bring on the butterflies, how I enjoy this feeling.

Scout

"Why"
She screamed so loud it felt like her lungs were about to burst from the pressure. Her cries were drowned out by the rain thundering down.
All she wanted was an answer but all she found were lies, she knew no one on earth could tell her what she truly wanted to hear.
As she took one step forward she thought about what she was about to do, she couldn't do it anymore.
With her final breath she whispered,
"Sorry"
She stepped forward, the ground fell away underneath her.

Headspins

Watching as the world rushed past her, not knowing which way was up and which was down. Spinning, tumbling and almost floating through the air she remembered this feeling.
Heavy breathing, palms sweating, heart thumbing in your chest like the beat of a drum. He grabbed her.
She held her breathe, staring into his eyes she wanted nothing more than for the world to freeze and for them to stay like this forever.
She waited. What felt like an eternity...
"I love you"
She felt her knees go weak as he kissed her. As he pulled away she caught her breath.
"You make me happy"
She whispered almost silently.

Oh the cleverness of you

Silly little girl, soon you will see. The error of your ways and who your really turning out to be.
Make one mistake, because soon you will see for some people thats all it will take.

Oh little one.

I know you may not understand why I had to grow up so fast, Just like I may not understand how you can still be so young.
But no matter what, you will always be apart of me. Your craziness keeps me coming back, Its almost as if I can never get enough.